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"Daddy, please hear this song that I sing. In your heart, there's a spark that just screams for a lover to bring a child to your chest, that would lay as you sleep, and love all you have left, like your boy used to be long ago, wrapped in sheets warm and wet. Blister, please, with those wings in your spine. Love to be with a brother of mine, how he'd love to find your tongue in his teeth in a struggle to find secret songs that you keep wrapped in boxes so tight, sounding only at night as you sleep. And in my dreams, you're alive and you're cryin, as your mouth moves in mine, soft and sweet. Rings of flowers round your eyes, and I love you for the rest of your life, in a wreath. Brother, see, we are one in the same. And you left with your head filled with flames and you watched as your brains fell out through your teeth, pushed the pieces in place, make your smile sweet to see, don't you take this away; I'm still wanting my face on your cheek. And when we break, we'll wait for our miracle. God is a place where some holy spectacle lies. When we break, we'll wait for our miracle. God is a place you will wait for the rest of your life. Two-headed boy, she is all you could need. She will feed you tomatoes and radio wires, and retire to sheets, safe and clean. But don't hate her when she gets up to leave."
"Two-Headed Boy Pt. II", by Neutral Milk Hotel
So holy shit. It's only been a few months but a lot more has happened than you would've thought. I'm having a baby, dude. We're having a baby, me and Trev. We're getting married next year. I'm due the 1st of August. Ashley is due this week or the next. My brother is getting married and having a kid of his own. I just got over a 3-day headache and I feel nauseous 40% of the time I'm awake. We get to hear the heartbeat on the 17th. I am at a creative standstill and have been for several months. Can't write, paint, draw, play anything new, or even think creatively. I gotta get outta this spell or I'll drive myself crazy. Sundays are the worst for me because the coffee house is closed and I sit by myself for like 8 hours cause there's nothing to do on a Sunday in this town. I can't sleep in past 11, which adds to the crappiness of a Sunday because that's two extra hours for me to be bored out of my mind. Woohoo.
I didn't sound very happy up there^ about the baby thing, well think again. I'm just bored and annoyed right now, but it's really what I wanted. It's what I've wanted for years now, and I was blessed with it, and now I'm just waiting. The first few months suck because you can't really tell and you just feel like shit a lot. I just gotta wait it out I guess. I'm actually doing better than a lot of other girls so it's fine. I feel yet another headache coming on, probably because I'm hungry and I've been staring at this computer for a long time.
In general, I consider myself a happy person. Just not at this particular second in time. So poo on this, I'm gonna go make myself some grub.